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Bi-polar or jinn- possessed

Assalamualaikum brothers and sister

I am a 30 year old female going through a very hard time because of my mental disorders. I have been diagnosed with Bipolar disorder, paranoia psychotic disorder, and obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD).

I have always been a believer of Islam and I have always loved praying and bringing myself closer to Allah, but I am having a hard time because of my mental disorder. When I have a manic episode, I make irrational decisions which I have no control over. I lose touch of reality and don't realize what I did was wrong until my mood changes. I feel awful. I repent for my sins, but I am also not capable of controlling myself when I am manic. It does scare me sometimes because I don't know what I'm capable when I am in that state of mind.

At this time, I am not being treated. I spoke to a few people at my local mosque and they told me that I am possessed by jinn. I have tried reciting a few surahs; ayat al kursi and a few verses from surah baqarah when I feel paranoid, but it doesn't really do anything. I was told to contact someone to help me, but the lady told me that I had to pay $2,500 for her help. I declined because I don't want to pay that much money and not get any help.

I would very much love to get married and have a family one day. However, right now it's not something that I can think about. I need to focus on my mental health, but the idea of being turned down for marriage gives me stress and makes me feel worse.

At this point, I'm not sure if I should get back on medication or if I should look for an "exorcist". I just want to be happy and want to continue my beliefs in Islam, but I feel like I am being pushed farther and farther away.


I need help. Where can I find someone who understands jinn? I live in New York City. Has anyone ever confused jinn possession with bi-polar disorder before?

I'm open to any advice. I don't want to feel like a failure anymore.

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