My personal experience that shown me asexuality is a harmful lie

Before gender criticism, I used to identify as an asexual person. I didn't fully understood what that means and it took me a long while to understand that I was just saying such a thing not to be judged for my actual sexuality. I felt repressed and afraid of people around me, I didn't want to be judged, mocked or harassed because of that, I didn't want my friends to go away, I didn't want to be fetishized by men. I was just using asexuality as mask, but turned out that I wanted so much to be true and that would solve all my problems that I ended up believing. I wasn't truly happy with that, things didn't magically felt easier and less oppressive, repressing myself like that and lying to me was just making me more confused and hurt. Things just started to get better when I was presented to gender criticism. Society teaches women like me to hate their choices and themselves. Asexuality is repressive and harmful.

After becoming a gender critic and accepting myself, I started noticing how the same that happened to me was also happening with way more people. A friend of mine, for example, gave me a strong impression that she just saus she's asexual because she's afraid of being harassed by men. Sadly I could never actually show her gender criticism, she's an afraid libfem, otherwise I'd be called an evil terf and would be pushed away from my other friends.