Truthfully, I fell in love with a woman that I met at Harvest in 2013-2014, which was my motivation for losing all my weight in February of 2017. I hadn't seen her for a long time, but thought about her a lot. I (by chance or God's intervention) met her one day at the beach, in her culottes in her hammock on February 21st, 2017, and finally expressed my heart's feelings toward her. I was on cloud nine. I was embarrassed when I met her, because she was so skinny, and I was so overweight. Unfortunately she doesn't want me (which makes me sad), likely afraid of what other people think about her (and me) at Harvest, since my fallout with Harvest Baptist Church. I know as sure as I'm saved that she liked me in 2014. She used to wait for me in the parking lot at the church, and she won my heart. But I was scared at the time (still recovering from a divorce), which I explained to her later. It is what it is, beyond my efforts. I wish things were different.

I really love Michael P. Bowen's book, “I Never Knew You,” where he is transparent (like I am being), sharing his many heartbreaks with the prospective women in his life, relating it to salvation and Matthew 7:21-23. Rejection hurts! I think it is tragic how so many women merely want the guy that everyone else wants (i.e., she is more concerned about her public image than finding a godly man). People marry for all the wrong reasons. I have my faults, but God knows there is not a more pure of heart man than myself, and I love the Lord Jesus Christ, which is why I fight so valiantly for the inspiration and purity of the King James Bible.