Pastah Mac #fundie forum.myspace.com
I think you're avoiding backing your obvious ignorant claims.
Your Atheism was most likely sparked in College...stressed from HighSchool life because of the obvious rejection. You love to teach, but you only do so for the sake of purpose and that was the best alternative at the time for a college education to give. Your smoking, though not too much festered in you early to calm the storm of stress from school life and other such things. The smile you posess is only a fragment to cover up the pain and anguish of the rejection from not only your peers, but your family as well.
You're still single because you have this unhealthy bias towards men, due to jealously and that scar of rejection. The beauty of intelligence inside of you has been willfully limited so as not to have high expectations and be shot down.
In many instances you love to speak to friends, but gather few from your uneasiness around others and the inability to trust.
All these add up to your rejection of a loving God, because from the absence of love within your own life you deem it to be impossible.
