Getting HIV To Lose Inceldom

At this point - I'm pretty desperate. Seeing happy people, happy couples, and happy families is driving me to horribly depressing levels. My new plan to finally lose Inceldom and get a companion? Get HIV. Here's why.

Once pozzed I will be a part of a niche community. In the US not that many women have HIV but there's enough to form a small dating pool that nearly 99.9% of men will reject and refuse to pursue due to the virus. This decreases the competition for me, and, by both of us having the virus, we wouldn't care about it and it would make us bond. In addition my subhuman looks and genetics would be more likely to be forgiven due to her being in almost equal position with pretty much EVERY Normie male. Plus, it'd gaurantee me a peaceful death in about 10 years when AIDS kicks in (I would refuse treatment) - so by the time she'd decide to run off with another man and cuckhold me, I'd be dead so it wouldn't matter.

Now - the best way to get it would have to be to go to have a poz guy infect me because it's pretty hard for a guy to get it from a woman. If I can hold on and handle taking it up the ass enough times to eventually get infected - I can finally become part of a niche community and find the woman of my dreams. Plus - I'm so fucking desperate right now I'm getting to point where fucking dudes is a necessary step in order to gain skills to apply to women and men since I think I may be bi. Also open to Hep C too since it's similar.