I would be so attracted to a woman who truly hates herself

Not the "boost my ego, orbiters" expressive wannabe self hate. Not the "cheer me up with your cock Chad" depression display. I mean real, true, deep, honest self loathing. The type that people say make no one want to be with you, but to the next level. The type where she is only still alive because she doesn't have enough mercy towards herself to end it.

Such non existing unicorn is even more appealing than a virginal cunt, as it would mean she has the gift of perceiving reality and good judgment, otherwise unobtainable to femoids.

She'd almost feel like a real person.