“They don't seem at all bothered over how ugly they are. Some even tell themselves that they are beautiful. Obviously, I cannot do this. My mind simply does not operate this way.” Yes, the difference there, is that you are sick, when they are not. You have a real and possibly quite overwhelming mental illness but you refuse to even entertain the concept. They are simply living their lives, having their fun and if they happen to meet their match on the way, they’ll go for it. You on the other hand continue to just sulk in the shadows, always in pain, always down but never quite grasping, why it is so.
So close, yet so far, though maybe if you just continue observing the males who actually are living their lives, instead of constantly staying in your echo chamber, who knows…
ps. Jestermaxxing? You really don’t get that a large segment of the female population is first and foremost attracted to self-awarness and some distance, which is commonly conveyed in social situations through humour. Those “Jestermaxxing” guys are showing us all up front, that they’re are capable of self reflection, have certain distance to themselves and are well, funny, something MANY gals consider important in a man.