I get physcially sick at the sight of seeing a girl on any entertainment (tv, movies, youtube) because i have never had a gf

I literally get a cortisol spike and disgust as i see a women due to me never having one in real life. Does anyone else get like this?

I feel much worse when I see couples or any sort of teen/20s relationship because I see the thing I will never have.

Thats even worse than just a girl. But woth just a girl i just picture how many chad dicks she fucked and every guy she slept ins bed.

I get overcome by grief seeing women because I realize they are most likely rotten inside It's like seeing other kids get gifts and when it's your turn you unwrap your gift you find a pile of shit

I wish i could feel anything thats not sadness and anger when seeing them