2025 has been for me a defining year where I deeply felt the inner gratification of evil thoughts so much so that I have had an 'awakening' of sorts. I was always aware that there is an inherent duality within us: a delicate pendulum of good an evil. However, it was only last year where I've really become more comfortable in just outright admitting that I am simply more evil than good. It's simply in my nature to both BE evil and ASPIRE to be evil, so much so that much like Charlie Kirk, I see empathy as a marker of weakness. I see murder and cruelty as a spectacle of titillation. I see hypocrisy as the a coveted status marker of power.

First of all, only strong, bold, and powerful people have what it takes to commit acts of evil. I did not say acts of violence, or acts of thievery, or 'acts' that have a tendency to be perceived in a certain way. I mean acts of true malice, where you aren't picking a side, there isn't an ulterior motive of possible benevolence.
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DOMINANCE, POWER, CRUELTY = ZENITH OF MAN.

or better yet:

PSYCHOPATHY, MACHIAVELLIANISM, NARCISSISM = WORTHY OF RESPECT

I remember when I first discovered 4 chan in the early 2000s, I was deeply offended because they kept on using the word 'nigger' and making lynching memes and meant it. It tore at my bluepilled innocent antiracist soul and it angered me, but I couldn't get enough. This sensation of being exposed to evil was both injuring my mind but giving me a psychotic rush at the same time.
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I think the only difference between a blackpilled incel and a bluepilled incel is how much 4chan could they tolerate mentally, before they become 4chan.