“I just realised I am disgusted by 99.9999% of people on the planet
Even disgusted by people who have done nothing wrong to me.”
Wait,they’ve done nothing to harm you?
Or they haven’t done anything that you would consider wrong?
The first is fine. Donald Trump disgusted me in many ways, long before he affected my life in any way.
I can’t see being disgusted if you’re okay with everything they do, though.
“When I look over social media, I expect that I should feel envy, or jealousy, but I dont feel any envy or jealousy,”
Why do you expect these feelings? WHY do you go on social media if you think you’re going to feel these feelings?
“I just feel disgust, and feel like I've dodged a bullet by being autistic and not a generic normie.”
A generic normie? You mean… Normal? I mean, is there such a thing as an exotic normie?
So, you label yourself as an incel. You group yourself with people who define themselves as unable to get a woman they want desperately. So on social media, you see people posting about their date, their sex, their girlfriend’s pot pie, all the things you would kill to experience and… it disgusts you.
Uh huh…
“I can't explain why exactly, but it's almost like a sense of relief in a way?”
Disgust because you’re so relieved. Yes, that is how emotions work.
“Often I feel like Im missing out on something, but then I realise 99.999% of peoples lives are fucking generic”
Ah. There’s an Ernest Borgnine movie. Marty. It’s about how most humans are not superheroes or supervillains or super. We just trudge along. And maybe, somehow, it’s nice to find someone else who is ‘generic,’ to make this boring life a little less boring.
“and shit, even Chads from highschool I knew who are 30+ now, they're with fat ugly girlfriends, going on generic holidays around the world,”
A holiday around the world is not generic, dillhole.
These people have someone to talk to. You screech at the tv screen about other people’s lives being shit.
“all of them, I thought were special, are just living generic shitty lives, and none of them look as good as I actually remember.”
No one does.
“ This goes for all the Staceys and Beckies, theyre all fat and disgusting now.”
So, you define yourself by never having HAD a Stacey before, and now you don’t want one?
“What exactly is the purpose of all of this?”
Finding someone and making the necessary growth to attract them.
“ I don't even know where to go next, everyone seems boring, shitty, lame, and generic as fuck.”
Ever read Catcher In The Rye? Every other page he’s calling someone a phony. No real basis for it. Just phony.
“This is NOT COPE.”
You could get that tattooed on your arm. I hate everyone that I’m jealous of AND IT’S NONE OF IT COPE!!!
Sure, sure. We believe you.
“I repeat, this is NOT COPE.”
yes, you did say that before.
“I generally want to feel envy and jealous looking at other peoples lives, because it makes it simple for me to understand what makes me feel the way I do, but I just dont,”
So, wait. Envy and jealousy help you understand your feelings, which you just described in detail, but you don’t feel envy or jealousy? You just understand your feeling…anyway?
“I feel nothing but disgust and as if im better off the way I am.”
Ah. So, you could put effort into getting a girl or you could LDAR and blame EVERYONE ELSE for not being in your life.
But it’s not cope.
“ It would be 100% easier in my mind to feel envy and jealousy, but feeling DISGUST is really strange, I don't know where to go from here.”
I’m guessing envy and jealousy…
“ If I don't want the life of the normie, why am I sad all the time about not being a normie?”
Because you want to be a normie.
“ What the fuck am I supposed to do?”
Therapy. Obviously.